i went to visit my dad 2day..
thats wt i do every friday..
i was crushed inside..
i was so weak i ran to the car to hide..
i cant seem to absorb the fact that ur gone..
i cant stop thinkin about the memories and the things u've done..
dad i rly need u back..
dad without everything is a wreck..
im sure ur lookin down on us n seein how much wr suffering..
dad the family u built is now shatterin..
everything is happenin very fast..
i wanna go back to our past..
back when we wr little kids n you wr thr..
back when all 6 of us showed we care..
im so deeply hurt inside dad..
n im acting like im not sad..
infact im jokin n smilin like i always do..
but is so very hard cuz of wt im gng thro..
my sibilings n i barely ever sit together..
n my poor mum's heart is as tender as a feather..
thrs always a tear on her cheek..
ever since u left she became weak..
tho she doesnt show it..
she hanged ur pictures everywhere..
to remind us of all the times we used share..
dad ur birthday is coming up soon..
i guess i'll spend this day like i always do..
starrin' at the stars and the moon..
dad my brother n sister r going to get engaged..
im happy for them..its just i feel like im caged..
dad im trying to be strong for my family's sake..
i cant even act that im happy anymore..its so fake..
i remember how u told me.."take care of ur sisters n mum for me"
u'd always whisper that in my ears before travelling..
even tho ur not around..i know ur hearing me out..
i know ur listenin to me..
i just hope im not letting u down..
im tryin to reverse my family's frown..
now ur phisically gone and wr all hurt..
ur always remain in our heart..
i love u dad..so much..